Talking about LOVE

I am addicted to love!
Voilà ! That's my declaration.

Love has always been intriguing to me. I love deeply,  and I know how love feels like because I love quite a lot, I am used to love, I'm passionate about it, and to me love means the world. Love is everything. I've always been loved, one way or another. By my mom, my friends, my family, by those around me. Even when the vibe turns hostile I can still appreciate that as love.
Love to me goes beyond the typical "I love you", which I must admit I use quite often, and I love (pun intended) to see people's faces when I drop the L word, the thing is, I mean it.

When I talk love with people I know I get the:
-love my mom (I do too)
-love my children (no luck there)
-love my husband/wife (hell yes! I love the man)
-love my pet (aaawww I love my puppies unconditionally)

For me it goes way beyond that, and please correct me if I am wrong, maybe what I am talking about here is not love.

• I love life, passionately and I do not miss a chance to live fully and take chances I would regret not taking and that might not come back. I would do anything and risk it all to live a meaningful life, and I don't mean irresponsibly, I mean, living fully and loving every minute of it. I chase love whenever I feel it!
• I love the people crossing my paths and leaving a mark on me, they are cherished in in heart and never forgotten. If you sparked love in me, then you will always be part of my life, even if you don't know abut it. 
• I love the girl that makes my coffee in the morning, as soon as I walk into that coffee shop, she smiles and by the time I get to the counter, she is already on it. She knows me, lactose-free latte extra hot, she makes hearts with the foam, and she comes around the counter to hug me. I love her!
• I love kisses in any way, shape or form. Kisses make me feel alive, make me vibrate. I just love kisses! I LOVE KISSES!!!
• I love touch, often times I forget most people don't like to be touched,. For me it's a way to connect, to feel, to vibrate. I will touch your arm if I talk to you, I might take your hand, or I will touch your hair. And you bet I will hug you at one point, truth be said, I do it for me, because I need to feel beyond the words. 
• Love is that things that makes everything alright, when I'm pissed beyond my ears and can't see straight, I take myself back to love and everything becomes clear. I can only be responsible for how much I love and how I react when things "fall" out of love. Try it, it works!
• Love is somehow a chemical reaction in my brain and body that leads me to feel full, energized, content, happy, full, dizzy, and all I need is something, someone to spark it, after that's started, no worries man, I'll take it from there! And so I seek that in every interaction I have with the world. I'm all about love. 

Open up to love. Love a bit more and you will be changed forever. No matter what, take it back to love and things will turn around. Love deeply, love harder. Dude, just love!

 "We love life, not because we are used to living but because we are used to loving." - Friedrich Nietzsche

2015 New year. New beginning

I couldn't wait for 2014 to end and often said it was the toughest year I've had so far. I was holding onto fear and pain and blaming 2014 for it. 

Truth is, 2014 was a wonderful year, filled with personal growth and some of the biggest learnings of my life. So many things happened and it wasn't life's fault, it was all the result of my actions and I am the only responsible, if not for the outcome, at least for the attitude towards it. 

2014 was the year I took a stand for myself and those I love. I found my voice! And loud and clear I was heard. Big decisions and so many steps forward were taken. As much as I cried, suffered and dwelled in pain, in 2014 I also discovered how strong and unbreakable I am! Just like bamboo, I bend so I don't break.

2014 was kind to show who my true friends are, those that really love me for better or for worse, those that would come from far, and would go above and beyond to show me how much I'm loved and cared for. I always complain that my family and my true friends are far, and that has been a great excuse of why I don't go out as much as I would like to, and why I don't enjoy myself as much I want to, and why I hardly ever accept invitations to do fun stuff with people I know here in Montreal where I've been living for the last 12 years. 
The reality is that I have, here in Montreal a lot (yes lots!) of amazing friends that have become my family. I've created, for myself and for those around me, a huge community of like minded people and I've shared wonderful moments with this amazing community. My Montreal community knows me, loves me and appreciates me and I feel that every single day. I'm not alone here, have never been. I am loved and I love, and that's what it's all about. 

I work for a wonderful company that allows me to grow at my own pace (and my pace is fast!), that hands me the tools to develop myself into the best human being I could possibly be. Where I am not afraid to fall because I know that I have so many people behind me to help me get back on my feet, where no dream is ever too big, where possibility is where we all are,  and where I am treated as a being and not as a number in the payroll. I am given the space to just be and I'm so grateful to have that, it is a blessing! 
I love the people I work with, they have given so much love and support, not just my nearby colleagues but so many people within the company, something so rare to see these days, they are some of the most inspiring people I've met, and I will fight ninja style to protect my team, yes I will! 
And I go to work in sweatpants, leggings and running shoes... WIN WIN WIN

I can only be grateful for 2014 and very little, if anything, to b*tch about!

Thank you 2014 for being amazing, for coming and going, far from smooth, and so full of learnings. In the end, that's life, we either win or we learn, and I'm made for this.

Welcome 2015