Yes! It has been a while since I last wrote a word on this blog. I went through a lot of things, some good, some better, and some even better.
I have to admit that I was feeling a bit defeated and on the low side, so writing was left out, I am usually a positive bright girl, so bringing a dark note into the blog did not appeal to me at all, so I chose to leave it out. At the same time, some dear friends were asking, What happened? How are you doing? You are not writing... And even though not a lot of people know about this blog, some good friends do and they are far away, I can't easily communicate with them and this was a way for them to know about me and how I was dealing with my "thing". I don't know how to explain it but in a certain way, I just didn't feel like sharing any more, basically, I went back into hiding and not telling, like I was doing in the beginning. So, why am I writing again? Because is fun, I like it and you like it too! Also...
This morning I was feeling lost, yes lost! I live such a good blessed life yet I felt that there was something missing, I am missing a vision, a goal. I don't know what to do, where to go, where to start, really, I don't even know what I am talking about but deep inside I know! so, here I am looking for inspiration, a vision, something new and exciting, it might be old and exciting but something to inspire me. A revolution to my world! And maybe if I write about my feelings and my experiences then I might be able to see better the whole picture, to me it is easier to see in paper than to figure it all out in my head.
My last post was July, and I left off on my Budokon training and obtaining my next belt on the art. soon after that I went to Miami to assist my Teacher in a Teacher Training that was held in the headquarters in Miami. It was a good experience, I have been there many times and it was good to see my peers, meet the next generation of teachers and learn from the experience. Budokon Teacher Trainings are intense, rewarding but intense, and even though I did not physically train that much, I was still drained and tired by the end of the weekend and came back to Montreal to being sick like a dog! Really, not fun! And I have been sick, again and again! Sneezes and the whole same old story that you don't want to hear, better yet, that I don't want to hear! But since my last visit to the doctor I have been feeling much much better!!!
I finally got my appointment with the specialist and in a 3 hour appointment I met with three doctors that asked so many questions, that touched every single joint on my body and that seemed interested with my case. I got some more blood work done, they took a good look at my blood tests and I finally got a treatment!!! Yes, I got a treatment and some light into this dark patch that I've been through all this years. Nothing is confirmed, I have yet another appointment in two weeks.
I have been attacked a by an Immune Condition, we all know that, most likely Lupus (not my words, the doctor's), which kind? will know that in the next appointment I hope. The prescription I got is a pill to control Lupus and to be honest, it has helped a lot! I have been basically pain-free lately, the pills take about three months to take full effect but after one month I already feel the difference. My joints are not hurting but I still get the sneezes, and some very bad cases too! In general I feel stronger but my immune system needed this treatment badly and even though I wasn't too happy about medication, I had little options, Alternative Medicine will be good once I am stable, right now I am not, so I have to boost my system and from there we will take it. One day at the time! I like that :-)
I also have hubby up my eyes telling me that I have to eat better, at regular hours, that I need a schedule, that I have to be more careful, that I need more structure in my life, etc, etc, etc... And he is right, it just a pain in the eyes, really! I love him so much and he makes so much sense all the time. I am so lucky to have the best hubby in the world!
I also had some fun this summer too. I was invited to the Lululemon Ambassador Summit 2011, in Vancouver, and that was the coolest experience I've ever had in my life!!!
Vancouver is such a beautiful city and I got to meet the Lululemon Team, the Founder, the CEO, the CFO, best of all, all the other amazing Ambassadors that represent Lululemon in the world and that was really awesome. So cool, that it deserves a post for itself, so look for it! It is coming, with all the details, about Lululemon, Vancouver, the activities, the food, the fun , the shopping, the outcome, pictures, everything. Next post, I promise!!!
And now that my summer is almost over, I am back to work, not that much, just a few extra classes here and there, again, nothing strenuous. I want to have more time for myself, to recover and be back on track as fast as I can. September is a month of reflection for me and then October decisions will arise from the work I am doing now.
This October my mom is coming to visit too... YOOOOPPPPIIIIII!!!!! And she is staying for a month to celebrate my birthday, and to check on me, yes, she is a bit worried with my health situation. Also because I was taken to the hospital by an ambulance last week, and that was not fun, however all that came out of it was positive. I will write a post just for that story too, it was funny... not really, today I laugh but that day I cried my eyes out... and I missed the hunky firemen, wait until you hear about it!
September 25th is the Montreal Marathon, and I was supposed to race, however my health "thingy" didn't allow me to train and prepare for it. At first I was feeling sad because it was a goal and I didn't accomplish it but thinking about it better, I just had to move the dates around and will accomplish that goal at another time. Goals and Visions are not rigid, they move and get molded accordingly and it is obvious that in this case it was just stupid to force the training on me to achieve a goal that could easily be achieved at another time, specially when I am making space for healing and progress in my life. priorities, that's all! So, another race will come soon and so I'll be there with my pink shoes and my best smile!
And finally, I know I can't resume a whole two months in a few words, but at least here we have a new beginning, I am back to writing, I am back to smiling and being open about life!
Posts to come:
1.- Lululemon Ambassador Summit in Vancouver. the experience!
2.- My trip to the ER in an ambulance and missing the Firemen!
3.- My goals for what's left of this year and the next year!
Love xx
