I am feeling better, almost no pain, still sneezing but if I had to put a number on how I feel today it would be about 6-7 compared to 2-3 some months ago, that in a scale of 1 to10.
I am still taking medications, three pills a day, the doctor said that it is a very small dose and that I should not worry about it. I was also given the green light to excercise again and I am extremely happy about that, imagine my life without movement, oh no! I don't want to go there right now!
I was aked to refrain (actually, I physically couldn't do it anyways) from high impact activities, martial arts (explosive movement) weight liftgting and anything physically demanding that would affect my immune system, anything that would make my body react to the stress from exercising. It has been excruciating, I really love movement, exercise for me is an outlet, is sometimes all I have in a place where no family or dear friends are available, and yes I have some friends here but people are busy and don't take much time to share, so for me excercise is a way to connect with my inner self and with people around me, excercise is what I do, it is a HUGE part of my life, without it I am a bit lost... but wait, I'm finding myself in the process and there is more to my life than just that, so no worries here, we are cool!
So, last october I was told that I could do some Yoga (not Ashtanga), to keep doing QiGong and to use my good judgement on what I can do on a given day. I can now recognize how I am feeling on certain days and so I choose either to rest or to move, and so far, I am doing between 2 and 4 yoga classes a week, I lift weights once a week (very light and very little) and that's about it.. is a good beginning I think. I am also teaching 6 classes a week and two of them are a bit demanding but I don't do much, is my specialty class, a boxing/kickboxing inspire cardio class and I really don't do much, I mostly explain, cue and motivate, people know exactly what to do and I don't have to do the whole class, I love this class, my favorite, about 40-60 people in class, screaming, jumping, having fun, it gives me lots of good vibes, I am grateful for it.
This coming week (from dec 12th to 18th) I am planning to take 4 yoga classes and lift weights at least once...
Soon I'll be back with updates on my allergy treatment.
Love xx
Dec 7, 2011
lululemon Ambassador Summit. Summer 2011
I was asked to be an ambassador for one of their stores and it has been an amazing thing! I get to spend time with lots people, I teach classes in store, I meet other amazing ambassadors and get to learn about what they do, we go to each other's classes, we organize and participate in awesome events in our city and we meet amazing people that become part of our lives, really, I have made great friends throughout this process and for that I am grateful.
And, to make a long story short, I was invited to the Ambassador Summit 2011 in Vancouver, three days of lululemon culture, development, and fun. It is the way lululemon celebrates how amazing the ambassadors are and how passionate we are about creating strong relationships within our communities and for being role models and a source of inspiration to those in our community. Three days of elevation, inspiration, and relationship building. The most fun three days of my life, a truly elevating experience!
Three days with another 100+ amazing people, we did Yoga with the local stars, we met the master minds behind lululemon, we had access to personal development workshops, we played games, we visited the city, yummy food, a comfy bed to sleep and best of all, we wore Luon all three days!!!
yeah, Luon, one of my favorites fabrics! actually my favorite is Luxtreme.
OK, don't know what that is? check www.lululemon.com this is the gear I wear, the brand I so love and the community I represent. It is more than just clothing, it really is!
Here I am with Chip Wilson, founder of lululemon athletica,fellow ambassador Baskhar and lovely Amanda, store manager from Montreal.
And, to make a long story short, I was invited to the Ambassador Summit 2011 in Vancouver, three days of lululemon culture, development, and fun. It is the way lululemon celebrates how amazing the ambassadors are and how passionate we are about creating strong relationships within our communities and for being role models and a source of inspiration to those in our community. Three days of elevation, inspiration, and relationship building. The most fun three days of my life, a truly elevating experience!
Three days with another 100+ amazing people, we did Yoga with the local stars, we met the master minds behind lululemon, we had access to personal development workshops, we played games, we visited the city, yummy food, a comfy bed to sleep and best of all, we wore Luon all three days!!!
yeah, Luon, one of my favorites fabrics! actually my favorite is Luxtreme.
OK, don't know what that is? check www.lululemon.com this is the gear I wear, the brand I so love and the community I represent. It is more than just clothing, it really is!
Here I am with Chip Wilson, founder of lululemon athletica,fellow ambassador Baskhar and lovely Amanda, store manager from Montreal.
Sep 15, 2011
It has been a while...
Yes! It has been a while since I last wrote a word on this blog. I went through a lot of things, some good, some better, and some even better.
I have to admit that I was feeling a bit defeated and on the low side, so writing was left out, I am usually a positive bright girl, so bringing a dark note into the blog did not appeal to me at all, so I chose to leave it out. At the same time, some dear friends were asking, What happened? How are you doing? You are not writing... And even though not a lot of people know about this blog, some good friends do and they are far away, I can't easily communicate with them and this was a way for them to know about me and how I was dealing with my "thing". I don't know how to explain it but in a certain way, I just didn't feel like sharing any more, basically, I went back into hiding and not telling, like I was doing in the beginning. So, why am I writing again? Because is fun, I like it and you like it too! Also...
This morning I was feeling lost, yes lost! I live such a good blessed life yet I felt that there was something missing, I am missing a vision, a goal. I don't know what to do, where to go, where to start, really, I don't even know what I am talking about but deep inside I know! so, here I am looking for inspiration, a vision, something new and exciting, it might be old and exciting but something to inspire me. A revolution to my world! And maybe if I write about my feelings and my experiences then I might be able to see better the whole picture, to me it is easier to see in paper than to figure it all out in my head.
My last post was July, and I left off on my Budokon training and obtaining my next belt on the art. soon after that I went to Miami to assist my Teacher in a Teacher Training that was held in the headquarters in Miami. It was a good experience, I have been there many times and it was good to see my peers, meet the next generation of teachers and learn from the experience. Budokon Teacher Trainings are intense, rewarding but intense, and even though I did not physically train that much, I was still drained and tired by the end of the weekend and came back to Montreal to being sick like a dog! Really, not fun! And I have been sick, again and again! Sneezes and the whole same old story that you don't want to hear, better yet, that I don't want to hear! But since my last visit to the doctor I have been feeling much much better!!!
I finally got my appointment with the specialist and in a 3 hour appointment I met with three doctors that asked so many questions, that touched every single joint on my body and that seemed interested with my case. I got some more blood work done, they took a good look at my blood tests and I finally got a treatment!!! Yes, I got a treatment and some light into this dark patch that I've been through all this years. Nothing is confirmed, I have yet another appointment in two weeks.
I have been attacked a by an Immune Condition, we all know that, most likely Lupus (not my words, the doctor's), which kind? will know that in the next appointment I hope. The prescription I got is a pill to control Lupus and to be honest, it has helped a lot! I have been basically pain-free lately, the pills take about three months to take full effect but after one month I already feel the difference. My joints are not hurting but I still get the sneezes, and some very bad cases too! In general I feel stronger but my immune system needed this treatment badly and even though I wasn't too happy about medication, I had little options, Alternative Medicine will be good once I am stable, right now I am not, so I have to boost my system and from there we will take it. One day at the time! I like that :-)
I also have hubby up my eyes telling me that I have to eat better, at regular hours, that I need a schedule, that I have to be more careful, that I need more structure in my life, etc, etc, etc... And he is right, it just a pain in the eyes, really! I love him so much and he makes so much sense all the time. I am so lucky to have the best hubby in the world!
I also had some fun this summer too. I was invited to the Lululemon Ambassador Summit 2011, in Vancouver, and that was the coolest experience I've ever had in my life!!!
Vancouver is such a beautiful city and I got to meet the Lululemon Team, the Founder, the CEO, the CFO, best of all, all the other amazing Ambassadors that represent Lululemon in the world and that was really awesome. So cool, that it deserves a post for itself, so look for it! It is coming, with all the details, about Lululemon, Vancouver, the activities, the food, the fun , the shopping, the outcome, pictures, everything. Next post, I promise!!!
And now that my summer is almost over, I am back to work, not that much, just a few extra classes here and there, again, nothing strenuous. I want to have more time for myself, to recover and be back on track as fast as I can. September is a month of reflection for me and then October decisions will arise from the work I am doing now.
This October my mom is coming to visit too... YOOOOPPPPIIIIII!!!!! And she is staying for a month to celebrate my birthday, and to check on me, yes, she is a bit worried with my health situation. Also because I was taken to the hospital by an ambulance last week, and that was not fun, however all that came out of it was positive. I will write a post just for that story too, it was funny... not really, today I laugh but that day I cried my eyes out... and I missed the hunky firemen, wait until you hear about it!
September 25th is the Montreal Marathon, and I was supposed to race, however my health "thingy" didn't allow me to train and prepare for it. At first I was feeling sad because it was a goal and I didn't accomplish it but thinking about it better, I just had to move the dates around and will accomplish that goal at another time. Goals and Visions are not rigid, they move and get molded accordingly and it is obvious that in this case it was just stupid to force the training on me to achieve a goal that could easily be achieved at another time, specially when I am making space for healing and progress in my life. priorities, that's all! So, another race will come soon and so I'll be there with my pink shoes and my best smile!
And finally, I know I can't resume a whole two months in a few words, but at least here we have a new beginning, I am back to writing, I am back to smiling and being open about life!
Posts to come:
1.- Lululemon Ambassador Summit in Vancouver. the experience!
2.- My trip to the ER in an ambulance and missing the Firemen!
3.- My goals for what's left of this year and the next year!
Love xx
I have to admit that I was feeling a bit defeated and on the low side, so writing was left out, I am usually a positive bright girl, so bringing a dark note into the blog did not appeal to me at all, so I chose to leave it out. At the same time, some dear friends were asking, What happened? How are you doing? You are not writing... And even though not a lot of people know about this blog, some good friends do and they are far away, I can't easily communicate with them and this was a way for them to know about me and how I was dealing with my "thing". I don't know how to explain it but in a certain way, I just didn't feel like sharing any more, basically, I went back into hiding and not telling, like I was doing in the beginning. So, why am I writing again? Because is fun, I like it and you like it too! Also...
This morning I was feeling lost, yes lost! I live such a good blessed life yet I felt that there was something missing, I am missing a vision, a goal. I don't know what to do, where to go, where to start, really, I don't even know what I am talking about but deep inside I know! so, here I am looking for inspiration, a vision, something new and exciting, it might be old and exciting but something to inspire me. A revolution to my world! And maybe if I write about my feelings and my experiences then I might be able to see better the whole picture, to me it is easier to see in paper than to figure it all out in my head.
My last post was July, and I left off on my Budokon training and obtaining my next belt on the art. soon after that I went to Miami to assist my Teacher in a Teacher Training that was held in the headquarters in Miami. It was a good experience, I have been there many times and it was good to see my peers, meet the next generation of teachers and learn from the experience. Budokon Teacher Trainings are intense, rewarding but intense, and even though I did not physically train that much, I was still drained and tired by the end of the weekend and came back to Montreal to being sick like a dog! Really, not fun! And I have been sick, again and again! Sneezes and the whole same old story that you don't want to hear, better yet, that I don't want to hear! But since my last visit to the doctor I have been feeling much much better!!!
I finally got my appointment with the specialist and in a 3 hour appointment I met with three doctors that asked so many questions, that touched every single joint on my body and that seemed interested with my case. I got some more blood work done, they took a good look at my blood tests and I finally got a treatment!!! Yes, I got a treatment and some light into this dark patch that I've been through all this years. Nothing is confirmed, I have yet another appointment in two weeks.
I have been attacked a by an Immune Condition, we all know that, most likely Lupus (not my words, the doctor's), which kind? will know that in the next appointment I hope. The prescription I got is a pill to control Lupus and to be honest, it has helped a lot! I have been basically pain-free lately, the pills take about three months to take full effect but after one month I already feel the difference. My joints are not hurting but I still get the sneezes, and some very bad cases too! In general I feel stronger but my immune system needed this treatment badly and even though I wasn't too happy about medication, I had little options, Alternative Medicine will be good once I am stable, right now I am not, so I have to boost my system and from there we will take it. One day at the time! I like that :-)
I also have hubby up my eyes telling me that I have to eat better, at regular hours, that I need a schedule, that I have to be more careful, that I need more structure in my life, etc, etc, etc... And he is right, it just a pain in the eyes, really! I love him so much and he makes so much sense all the time. I am so lucky to have the best hubby in the world!
I also had some fun this summer too. I was invited to the Lululemon Ambassador Summit 2011, in Vancouver, and that was the coolest experience I've ever had in my life!!!
Vancouver is such a beautiful city and I got to meet the Lululemon Team, the Founder, the CEO, the CFO, best of all, all the other amazing Ambassadors that represent Lululemon in the world and that was really awesome. So cool, that it deserves a post for itself, so look for it! It is coming, with all the details, about Lululemon, Vancouver, the activities, the food, the fun , the shopping, the outcome, pictures, everything. Next post, I promise!!!
And now that my summer is almost over, I am back to work, not that much, just a few extra classes here and there, again, nothing strenuous. I want to have more time for myself, to recover and be back on track as fast as I can. September is a month of reflection for me and then October decisions will arise from the work I am doing now.
This October my mom is coming to visit too... YOOOOPPPPIIIIII!!!!! And she is staying for a month to celebrate my birthday, and to check on me, yes, she is a bit worried with my health situation. Also because I was taken to the hospital by an ambulance last week, and that was not fun, however all that came out of it was positive. I will write a post just for that story too, it was funny... not really, today I laugh but that day I cried my eyes out... and I missed the hunky firemen, wait until you hear about it!
September 25th is the Montreal Marathon, and I was supposed to race, however my health "thingy" didn't allow me to train and prepare for it. At first I was feeling sad because it was a goal and I didn't accomplish it but thinking about it better, I just had to move the dates around and will accomplish that goal at another time. Goals and Visions are not rigid, they move and get molded accordingly and it is obvious that in this case it was just stupid to force the training on me to achieve a goal that could easily be achieved at another time, specially when I am making space for healing and progress in my life. priorities, that's all! So, another race will come soon and so I'll be there with my pink shoes and my best smile!
And finally, I know I can't resume a whole two months in a few words, but at least here we have a new beginning, I am back to writing, I am back to smiling and being open about life!
Posts to come:
1.- Lululemon Ambassador Summit in Vancouver. the experience!
2.- My trip to the ER in an ambulance and missing the Firemen!
3.- My goals for what's left of this year and the next year!
Love xx
Jul 8, 2011
What have I been up to?!
Hi there, I know it has been a while.
Things are more or less the same in regards to my health situation, I mean, The "sneezing" is still around and I am managing it well. I still do Therapeutic Yoga once a week, Qigong twice a week, TCM treatments once a week, Chinese Herbs twice a day and well, it all seems to be working. My energy levels are higher, I'm getting to enjoy more the nice weather and even went to the pool with my friend last week.
I am teaching 5 classes a week and so far so good, nothing strenuous or crazy just enough to keep me moving and feeling good, it kills me sometimes when I'm not able to throw flying kicks righ and left... yeah, you know what I mean!
So, really, what have I been up to lately?
I was doing Budokon all weekend, did I ever tell you about Budokon? Noooooo?
Well, Budokon is a fusion of Yoga, Martial Arts and Meditation, created by Kancho Cameron Shayne in 1998, check the web page and you will see how awesome Budokon is!
www.budokon.com
I have been practicing Budokon since June 2008 and I love it!
This past weekend I was testing to achieve my Budokon Purple Belt, I am the first Canadian Woman to achieve that rank and the fourth woman in the world!
Budokon is a fairly new art (a bit more than 10 years) so up to now there are no black belts, only two brown belts and about 8-9 purple belts, many blue belts and some more red belts. The ranking goes like this: White, Red, Blue, Purple, Brown, Black.
Check the web page and you will love what you see, on another post I will tell you my experience with Budokon and how it changed my life.
In the meantime, check out my performance for the Purple Belt Testing
I had to break boards with two different techniques. The First, Superman Punch, one board to break:
Second technique Side Kick, two boards to break:
The testing weekend was exhausting, even though I didn't train much, most of the time I was teaching and coordinating the events, the last day of training was the test and it was exahusting, the next day I was sneezing all day and sooooo tired, at least I understood what was happening to my body and did my best to sleep, eat and rest!
Overall, I am managing my situation really well, and the weather here is helping a lot, it is nice and sunny out there and when the heats kicks in nothing hurts, my bones feel good :-) and I don't get sick as often. And of course, since I am not training/working as much, my immune system is taking a break and my energy reserves are not depleted anymore.
I will keep you updated and know that so far, I'm looking tanned and healthy and best of all: I am feeling much better!!! That's all that matters!
Next post, I'll tell you all about the trip... that's exciting news!!!! Hint: BC...
Love & Light,
Mo
Things are more or less the same in regards to my health situation, I mean, The "sneezing" is still around and I am managing it well. I still do Therapeutic Yoga once a week, Qigong twice a week, TCM treatments once a week, Chinese Herbs twice a day and well, it all seems to be working. My energy levels are higher, I'm getting to enjoy more the nice weather and even went to the pool with my friend last week.
I am teaching 5 classes a week and so far so good, nothing strenuous or crazy just enough to keep me moving and feeling good, it kills me sometimes when I'm not able to throw flying kicks righ and left... yeah, you know what I mean!
So, really, what have I been up to lately?
I was doing Budokon all weekend, did I ever tell you about Budokon? Noooooo?
Well, Budokon is a fusion of Yoga, Martial Arts and Meditation, created by Kancho Cameron Shayne in 1998, check the web page and you will see how awesome Budokon is!
www.budokon.com
I have been practicing Budokon since June 2008 and I love it!
This past weekend I was testing to achieve my Budokon Purple Belt, I am the first Canadian Woman to achieve that rank and the fourth woman in the world!
Budokon is a fairly new art (a bit more than 10 years) so up to now there are no black belts, only two brown belts and about 8-9 purple belts, many blue belts and some more red belts. The ranking goes like this: White, Red, Blue, Purple, Brown, Black.
Check the web page and you will love what you see, on another post I will tell you my experience with Budokon and how it changed my life.
In the meantime, check out my performance for the Purple Belt Testing
I had to break boards with two different techniques. The First, Superman Punch, one board to break:
The testing weekend was exhausting, even though I didn't train much, most of the time I was teaching and coordinating the events, the last day of training was the test and it was exahusting, the next day I was sneezing all day and sooooo tired, at least I understood what was happening to my body and did my best to sleep, eat and rest!
Overall, I am managing my situation really well, and the weather here is helping a lot, it is nice and sunny out there and when the heats kicks in nothing hurts, my bones feel good :-) and I don't get sick as often. And of course, since I am not training/working as much, my immune system is taking a break and my energy reserves are not depleted anymore.
I will keep you updated and know that so far, I'm looking tanned and healthy and best of all: I am feeling much better!!! That's all that matters!
Next post, I'll tell you all about the trip... that's exciting news!!!! Hint: BC...
Love & Light,
Mo
Jun 29, 2011
I'm going on a trip :-)
Yes I am going to Vancouver!!!!
A beautiful gift I received today... I'll tell you about it! Tomorrow :-)
A beautiful gift I received today... I'll tell you about it! Tomorrow :-)
Jun 26, 2011
What I am doing to aid my healing process
Despite the fact that I am not feeling very good, let me tell you that the battle is on!
I know that I should work on mental toughness more than anything else because on that side I am crumbling big time, I get depressed and the pressure builds on mentally when I get sick, it is tough and I am yet to learn how to control my emotions in order to make my battle against this shit more effective. Getting depressed and the whole crying thing is a huge emotional stress on my body and it only helps me feel worse.
And some people might say, well if you know it doesn't help why do you cry and get sad? Well, it is not that easy to control, the mental game is tough specially when you know you are sick, not sure what exactly your condition is, waiting for a doctor to give you an appointment in this "developed country" with social medical insurance, receiving a call from the doctor saying that he is full and that he can't take anymore patients and from another doctor saying that the sooner he can see you is end of August, while in the meantime I am suffering, physically suffering, so it is not only the mental battle against this condition, it is also physical pain which makes things much harder. Also know that I have not been taking any pills or medicines, I have been toughing up the pain, up until today that I had to take the Tylenol arthritis because Hubby though that I should keep the pain at bay and having that much pain can't not be good for anyone, so I did swallow the pill!
I have been doing Therapeutic Yoga with my dear friend Antonella, I love the Yoga with her, I really feel better after the work we do, physically and mentally better. She is such a breeze of fresh air, so natural, honest, tough and soft at the same time. She knows me well and she knows where to touch me and how to get me to soften up on my hard spots and to toughen up on my soft ones. I love my sessions with Antonella! Gracias amiga, si estas leyendo estas lineas, eres la mejor xx
I am working towards having a more regular schedule, sleeping better and more, eating the proper foods and having a regular schedule without skipping meals and taking all the "chucherias" out, also big changes are coming up for me, regulating my stress is key and I know what has to be done, I have a plan, we'll talk about it next week.
I have also been taking Traditional Chinese Medicine treatments, you already know that. I feel that they do help and a lot and it is my relief right now. Thank goodness for Ethan and the lovely friend that took me there. Weird but as soon as I enter Ethan's office everything calms down, I feel calm, and instantly better, the energy in that place is so strong, almost tangible, even hubby who came with me to the office last week felt it.
Tui-Na, Herbs, Acupuncture and... Qigong. Aha! I started doing Qigong and I think I like it.
I've taken two different approaches.
One: I signed up for a beginners class, 12 weeks, twice a week, one day is practicing a form, some sort of kata that helps create, direct and manage energy along the organs and the body, with a student of Ethan, it shows that she is advanced in the Qigong practice, the second day is more theory with the man himself (Ethan), he explains the whole Meridian system, the path of the energy and we deepen the practice of the form we learn with the lovely lady. I like Qigong, I can actually feel the energy in my body and I do have a lot of energy, it is just that I don't know how to manage it or how to redirect it into the paths so it runs smoothly... or something like that, I'm just learning :-)
Two: I took a private Qigong lesson with Ethan, it was awesome!!!! I actually love it, it was different from what we do in the beginners class but nevertheless very helpful and he gave me a booklet to read and practice the exercises at home which I did already, pretty cool!
On my first qigong practice I felt very weird, kind of frisky, aroused, hot, sexy.. now, don't laugh, I did feel some sort of sexy energy waking up inside me and when the teacher asked how did we feel, of course I didn't talk but when I got home and told hubby, imagine! he was totally happy about it and he recommends that I do it more often LOL
Explaining the whole story to Ethan was funny and I was a bit embarrassed but he said that's so normal and that a lot of emotions will come out during the practice until I learn to balance and control it all.
And what am I going to do with the Doctor situation? I am going home, yes home to Margarita Island to get all tests done there and get a diagnosis from a doctor. It will cost money, specially the ticket to fly there and probably the same amount to pay for a private consultation here but down the line, I will be going home where my mom and my grandmother will be taking care of me, I will be surrounded by my family, close to the beach and the sun, you know, in my environment, my island, home!!!! And, the best of all, I don't need an appointment to go the doctor, I will show up and he will see me, and I can go to any laboratory and ask for any blood tests to be done, pay for it and then take all that to the best Rheumatologist in the Island and get down to business, no bureaucracy, no bullshit, no collapsed systems, no busy doctors trying to brush me off telling me I am not sick... suckers!!! *I'm giving you the finger* aaaahhhh that feels good... hahahahaha
Well, I have to be careful down there, violence is a concern and the political situation in my country is a bit rocky right now, so I might find a diagnosis, even get cured yet get killed in the process, I might be exaggerating but there is a lot of reality in my statement.
Tomorrow I have to work, teach a Martial Endurance Class, lots of cardio, jumping, cardio drills...hhhmmm... let's see how that goes. Hope I can make it in one piece and later in the afternoon my Qigong class :-) just thinking about it helps me feel good.
I'll keep in touch more often, writing helps. Nighty night xx
I know that I should work on mental toughness more than anything else because on that side I am crumbling big time, I get depressed and the pressure builds on mentally when I get sick, it is tough and I am yet to learn how to control my emotions in order to make my battle against this shit more effective. Getting depressed and the whole crying thing is a huge emotional stress on my body and it only helps me feel worse.
And some people might say, well if you know it doesn't help why do you cry and get sad? Well, it is not that easy to control, the mental game is tough specially when you know you are sick, not sure what exactly your condition is, waiting for a doctor to give you an appointment in this "developed country" with social medical insurance, receiving a call from the doctor saying that he is full and that he can't take anymore patients and from another doctor saying that the sooner he can see you is end of August, while in the meantime I am suffering, physically suffering, so it is not only the mental battle against this condition, it is also physical pain which makes things much harder. Also know that I have not been taking any pills or medicines, I have been toughing up the pain, up until today that I had to take the Tylenol arthritis because Hubby though that I should keep the pain at bay and having that much pain can't not be good for anyone, so I did swallow the pill!
I have been doing Therapeutic Yoga with my dear friend Antonella, I love the Yoga with her, I really feel better after the work we do, physically and mentally better. She is such a breeze of fresh air, so natural, honest, tough and soft at the same time. She knows me well and she knows where to touch me and how to get me to soften up on my hard spots and to toughen up on my soft ones. I love my sessions with Antonella! Gracias amiga, si estas leyendo estas lineas, eres la mejor xx
I am working towards having a more regular schedule, sleeping better and more, eating the proper foods and having a regular schedule without skipping meals and taking all the "chucherias" out, also big changes are coming up for me, regulating my stress is key and I know what has to be done, I have a plan, we'll talk about it next week.
I have also been taking Traditional Chinese Medicine treatments, you already know that. I feel that they do help and a lot and it is my relief right now. Thank goodness for Ethan and the lovely friend that took me there. Weird but as soon as I enter Ethan's office everything calms down, I feel calm, and instantly better, the energy in that place is so strong, almost tangible, even hubby who came with me to the office last week felt it.
Tui-Na, Herbs, Acupuncture and... Qigong. Aha! I started doing Qigong and I think I like it.
I've taken two different approaches.
One: I signed up for a beginners class, 12 weeks, twice a week, one day is practicing a form, some sort of kata that helps create, direct and manage energy along the organs and the body, with a student of Ethan, it shows that she is advanced in the Qigong practice, the second day is more theory with the man himself (Ethan), he explains the whole Meridian system, the path of the energy and we deepen the practice of the form we learn with the lovely lady. I like Qigong, I can actually feel the energy in my body and I do have a lot of energy, it is just that I don't know how to manage it or how to redirect it into the paths so it runs smoothly... or something like that, I'm just learning :-)
Two: I took a private Qigong lesson with Ethan, it was awesome!!!! I actually love it, it was different from what we do in the beginners class but nevertheless very helpful and he gave me a booklet to read and practice the exercises at home which I did already, pretty cool!
On my first qigong practice I felt very weird, kind of frisky, aroused, hot, sexy.. now, don't laugh, I did feel some sort of sexy energy waking up inside me and when the teacher asked how did we feel, of course I didn't talk but when I got home and told hubby, imagine! he was totally happy about it and he recommends that I do it more often LOL
Explaining the whole story to Ethan was funny and I was a bit embarrassed but he said that's so normal and that a lot of emotions will come out during the practice until I learn to balance and control it all.
And what am I going to do with the Doctor situation? I am going home, yes home to Margarita Island to get all tests done there and get a diagnosis from a doctor. It will cost money, specially the ticket to fly there and probably the same amount to pay for a private consultation here but down the line, I will be going home where my mom and my grandmother will be taking care of me, I will be surrounded by my family, close to the beach and the sun, you know, in my environment, my island, home!!!! And, the best of all, I don't need an appointment to go the doctor, I will show up and he will see me, and I can go to any laboratory and ask for any blood tests to be done, pay for it and then take all that to the best Rheumatologist in the Island and get down to business, no bureaucracy, no bullshit, no collapsed systems, no busy doctors trying to brush me off telling me I am not sick... suckers!!! *I'm giving you the finger* aaaahhhh that feels good... hahahahaha
Well, I have to be careful down there, violence is a concern and the political situation in my country is a bit rocky right now, so I might find a diagnosis, even get cured yet get killed in the process, I might be exaggerating but there is a lot of reality in my statement.
Tomorrow I have to work, teach a Martial Endurance Class, lots of cardio, jumping, cardio drills...hhhmmm... let's see how that goes. Hope I can make it in one piece and later in the afternoon my Qigong class :-) just thinking about it helps me feel good.
I'll keep in touch more often, writing helps. Nighty night xx
no news, good news... not really!
Where have you been? Why aren't you writting anymore?... I know it has been a while, things have been hectic and I have been up and down with my health and my spirit. It takes a lot of strength not to feel depressed everytime I get sick. It is a rollercoaster of extreme happiness when I feel great and extreme sadness when I get sick... not fun!
The month of June I didn't get sick during the ovulation period, neither I got sick during my period... awesome, right?... well, I got sick in between :-( for 3 days I was down with the usual "cold", had to stay in bed and couldn't work, really, not fun.
I did however went "activity happy", in the sense that I went running, did Yoga in the park and visited Moksha Yoga a couple of times during the week. All that before I got sick. So we are clear that with my condition, exhausting my energy is not good at all, any stress on my body will put me down, hard to control because I don't want to be crippled at home, I still want to live my life in the most normal way possible. Until I get properly diagnosed and more exhaustive blood tests are done I will be in the limbo guessing what and how to do things so I don't get sick.
I have been feeling a lot of joint pain too, more than ever, of course the rainy, damp temperature doesn't help for the arthritic pain. It takes a toll on my mind too, I feel very sad and depressed sometimes, it is hard to cheer up when things don't look that bright and when I can't move, believe, it kills me!!!
So, in the last two weeks lots of things happened. I got sick twice, I'm just recovering from another 3 day "cold", the pain in my hands, fingers, toes, ankles, neck, the extreme fatigue, lack of appetite and depression are taking the best of me and I'm isolating more and more. Even when I explain to people that I'm sick with a immune condition or something of the like they still don't get it and they just say "Oh, I'm sorry, you will feel better" or they will say "what is that?" frustrating! Really, I don't want people to feel sorry for me and at the same time I don't want to go around explaining why I am wearing a hoodie/long sleeve when it is so sunny but windy outside and everybody is wearing tank tops. People asking: "aren't you hot??? Helloooo... maybe I'm not and that's why I am wearing my long sleeve, really I am even loosing patience. And the worst is yet to come if it keeps going like this.
Last thursday I couldn't work, physically couldn't, I wanted to and was in the car driving to work but couldn't make it there, the sneezes and the pain got the best of me and I had to drive back home (a hard task, I almost called Hubby to get me) and pull a last minute call to my boss who was in total shock that I called about 90 minutes before my class started to tell her that I couldn't work. I was in tears, feeling horrible for having to call my boss, and that was worse than the pain itself. That rarely happens, I am known for NEVER being late and for being one of the most reliable person at work, I felt horrible for not being able to make it, and then reality setting in when I realized that slowly slowly I am retrieving away from what I love doing, this has to stop somehow, I can't go on like this anymore. I am starting to feel sorry for myself, seriously!
Since Thursday I have been sick, sneezes, and pain, a terrible pain that I had to stay in bed, most of the weekend. Today sunday I've been up but high on Tylenon Arthritis, I don't want to take pills, specially the steroids but the pain was bad and I had to control it somehow, tomorrow I work and I hope I will be ok to do it, if I don't make it, I'll be fired pretty soon :-( I know my health is more important but loosing my job or not being able to work will be devastating for my mental health. At least when I teach I get to move a bit and get to share some good times with my much loved class participants.
I feel blessed to have such a wonderful man next to me who cheers me up, who does his very best to help me feel better, who makes the darkest jokes about my health and says that maybe he should start looking for a new wife since it seems that I won't make it far. I know, it sounds horrible but if you met him, you would understand his sense of humour and it actually makes me laughs and a lot!
I haven't write much because it is more of the same, feeling good for 3-4 days, exercise and feeling great, then get sick for 3-4 days, feeling sorry and sad and still covering up my feelings and trying to pull off all my activities and responsibilities. Man, it is hard!!!
Next post, I'll make a list of what I am doing to feel better and to aid my healing process...
Thanks to all of you who took the time to write me a note, call, MB, email and for being concern about my health. Love you xx
The month of June I didn't get sick during the ovulation period, neither I got sick during my period... awesome, right?... well, I got sick in between :-( for 3 days I was down with the usual "cold", had to stay in bed and couldn't work, really, not fun.
I did however went "activity happy", in the sense that I went running, did Yoga in the park and visited Moksha Yoga a couple of times during the week. All that before I got sick. So we are clear that with my condition, exhausting my energy is not good at all, any stress on my body will put me down, hard to control because I don't want to be crippled at home, I still want to live my life in the most normal way possible. Until I get properly diagnosed and more exhaustive blood tests are done I will be in the limbo guessing what and how to do things so I don't get sick.
I have been feeling a lot of joint pain too, more than ever, of course the rainy, damp temperature doesn't help for the arthritic pain. It takes a toll on my mind too, I feel very sad and depressed sometimes, it is hard to cheer up when things don't look that bright and when I can't move, believe, it kills me!!!
So, in the last two weeks lots of things happened. I got sick twice, I'm just recovering from another 3 day "cold", the pain in my hands, fingers, toes, ankles, neck, the extreme fatigue, lack of appetite and depression are taking the best of me and I'm isolating more and more. Even when I explain to people that I'm sick with a immune condition or something of the like they still don't get it and they just say "Oh, I'm sorry, you will feel better" or they will say "what is that?" frustrating! Really, I don't want people to feel sorry for me and at the same time I don't want to go around explaining why I am wearing a hoodie/long sleeve when it is so sunny but windy outside and everybody is wearing tank tops. People asking: "aren't you hot??? Helloooo... maybe I'm not and that's why I am wearing my long sleeve, really I am even loosing patience. And the worst is yet to come if it keeps going like this.
Last thursday I couldn't work, physically couldn't, I wanted to and was in the car driving to work but couldn't make it there, the sneezes and the pain got the best of me and I had to drive back home (a hard task, I almost called Hubby to get me) and pull a last minute call to my boss who was in total shock that I called about 90 minutes before my class started to tell her that I couldn't work. I was in tears, feeling horrible for having to call my boss, and that was worse than the pain itself. That rarely happens, I am known for NEVER being late and for being one of the most reliable person at work, I felt horrible for not being able to make it, and then reality setting in when I realized that slowly slowly I am retrieving away from what I love doing, this has to stop somehow, I can't go on like this anymore. I am starting to feel sorry for myself, seriously!
Since Thursday I have been sick, sneezes, and pain, a terrible pain that I had to stay in bed, most of the weekend. Today sunday I've been up but high on Tylenon Arthritis, I don't want to take pills, specially the steroids but the pain was bad and I had to control it somehow, tomorrow I work and I hope I will be ok to do it, if I don't make it, I'll be fired pretty soon :-( I know my health is more important but loosing my job or not being able to work will be devastating for my mental health. At least when I teach I get to move a bit and get to share some good times with my much loved class participants.
I feel blessed to have such a wonderful man next to me who cheers me up, who does his very best to help me feel better, who makes the darkest jokes about my health and says that maybe he should start looking for a new wife since it seems that I won't make it far. I know, it sounds horrible but if you met him, you would understand his sense of humour and it actually makes me laughs and a lot!
I haven't write much because it is more of the same, feeling good for 3-4 days, exercise and feeling great, then get sick for 3-4 days, feeling sorry and sad and still covering up my feelings and trying to pull off all my activities and responsibilities. Man, it is hard!!!
Next post, I'll make a list of what I am doing to feel better and to aid my healing process...
Thanks to all of you who took the time to write me a note, call, MB, email and for being concern about my health. Love you xx
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